I feel afraid to write. Afraid that I may say the wrong thing. afraid that I may say too much, or not enough… afraid that i will not respond soon enough, or in other cases, too quickly. I am afraid of hurting others, being misunderstood or letting others down.
YES, I am a people pleaser. I want to help others, make the way easier, will take on anothers burden as my own, and go even as far as to take the blame for things I know I am not guilty of.
So, i am stepping out today and confronting my own fears.
that’s all I have to say for today.
Well you know me, I am a white http://www.thecolorcode.com/about.html
I am the very definition of people pleaser. I am on Facebook and someone invited me to join a cause to protect marriage: one man, one woman. For a while I stopped and thought about how that would make the Gay people who are my Facebook friends feel. It’s embarrassing to me that I did pause. I realized that if I Don’t Stand for Something; I Will Fall For Anything. A while back a friend of mine started a blog called Year of No Fear. Every week she shares a goal or a funny story to help us to think of how we succumb to our fears. It is generally lighhearted, but I have loved trying to consciously overcome my fears, no matter how small. Check her out if you would like:
yearofnofear.blogspot.com
Storie, you are such a caring person I can’t imagine anything you say or write could be interpreted as “the wrong thing”.
I enjoy all your post.
I am glad to see you are stepping out. Make sure you do a little dance when you get outside. I know you like to sing, and singing and dance are two things that will lighten our hearts.
Jac,
White is good….really good. I love white.
Thanks for the insight. I can always count on you.
(that and a good side dish…ha!)
and…go pops, huh?
love you! Storie
Ed, you make me laugh! I mean the happy laugh…as my husband says, “Storie’s wrinkle nose laugh”
I am planning a big dance on the “outside”
I’m ‘coming on out’.
Thanks.
That’s pretty good writing. Move forward when you can and everytime you can. Thanks for being here.
Adam
storie. i wish you and i had the opportunities to visit more. because you know what…every single time ive ever been blessed by your presence, God has always, without fail, spoken to me through you. yes ma’am. you are one of the most beautiful women of God i know. just be you. the you you know He is molding you to be. you wont go wrong there.
I’m so glad you wrote something anyway.
Adam, thank you for your encouragement. :–)
Tam, thank you sister. You bless me so much. miss you
HW-thanks. it felt good to post ‘i don’t know what to write…to just say how i feel.’ I don’t do that often enough.
i also suffer from the people pleasing disease. i have gotten better at recognizing my people pleasing “patterns” and hope that i can focus more on being MYSELF and be comfortable with that rather than feeling that I have to be someone for all the other people!
praying for you!
There are times I’m afraid, too.
Very afraid.
Brandi,
l just love how that sounds: “being MYSELF” –not someone who we are not according to others.
I am so glad that Jesus came to set us free!
Nor~
me too. I try not to be. but sometimes it just sneaks up like a wave and washes me out to sea.
but we have Jesus to anchor us and save us again and again…to remind us that He is our safe place, our refuge, our shield, our all and all.
Powerful stuff sis! I feel the same way. Although I can be quite stoic at times.
i’ll always enjoy reading what you write. no judgment, no expectations.
Thank you Alece.